The way I do everything

I don’t live my life by astrological forecasts. I’m not (very) superstitious.

But just to be on the safe side, I started out the day with my meditation group. And then I met up with my book group to discuss some spiritual literature and our real feelings about the challenges of 2014 and our hopes and fears for 2015.

And when I returned home, I scrubbed down my kitchen sink, tidied up some personal paperwork, and put away the holiday decorations, to help clear the way for a new year, after which I trundled over to my friends’ annual New Year’s Day open house, where I had some good-luck Hoppin’ John and the traditional See’s maple-cashew brittle.

I got caught up in a fascinating and timely discussion about book writing with a lovely editor, so I only caught the tail end of sunset in my favorite spot in SoCal. I killed a little time at a burger joint and a coffee shop on the way home, because my last stop of the evening was a friend’s 40th birthday party, at a karaoke joint in K-town.

So we’re clear, I still don’t consider myself a meditator, a spiritual person, a neatnik, or a social butterfly. Naturally, I’m not even particularly friendly. If I’d rolled with my inclinations, I might have mustered the enthusiasm to hit meditation before returning home to hole up in my place all day, justifying my hermitude by the cold temperatures (43ºF this morning!) and the raft of obligations I have left in the slender reed of free time between now and Monday.

But I have decided that I want to be a person whose world is bigger than her apartment, with old friends and new acquaintances and input from more than social media, streaming video, and the rest that the admittedly marvelous internet has to offer. And so I must, I now see, accept that the world works a certain way, and that whether or not I feel comfortable with it, I need to accept the ways of the world to have the experience I want. YES, I’M REALLY ONLY GETTING THIS NOW. The real way that the real world works, even if one is in alignment with it, requires work, and/or doing stuff that feels weird or even hard. I paid it lip service before, but secretly, I thought there were maybe some shortcuts available to me via my astounding natural gifts and, you know, luck.

There’s no way I will do all of the stuff I did today on every day in the new year, or any day in any year. I do like the idea, though, of setting the tone for the year. Previous January the firsts were spent hungover, or at least sequestered, with a stack of DVDs and/or books and zero obligations. My January 1sts felt really good—for the duration of January 1st.

I’m looking for something a little more enduring these days, on all fronts. The way I do January 1st is the way I want to do everything: thoughtfully, with a mix of spiritual and worldly endeavors, not running away from myself or other people. (Or, hey, money!)

Happy new year. It’s going to be a good one, no matter what happens.

xxx
c

P.S. Not that I will look a good-luck horse in the mouth!  Rest assured that I have pocketed the right-side-up penny I found shortly before meditation, and that I was dee-dilly-lighted to find it. It’s just that instead of relying on it, I’m taking it as kind of a “hi” sign from the universe—you’re doing it right, you’re making the right moves. Keep up the good work.

 

8 comments

  1. I wanted to let you know how much I have enjoyed the Altra shoes I got after your blog about them. Thanks.

    Namaste in the moment.

  2. So wonderful to see you in my inbox again! I especially love your knack for sending missives that cosmically align with whatever is going on in my interior world. Thanks for that :)

  3. Great post Colleen! It is great to set the tone for a new year, on how we aspire to (attempt) to live it isn’t it! ;) It is so exciting (frightening) and exhilarating to have, a sort of blank canvas in front of us every new year. We get to (possibly) create a new reality every new year. I wish you great sucess with your New Years goals. Miss seeing you at events and hope to see you at one in the new year.

    Be happy, be well. :)

    Ed

  4. Colleen, I’ve missed your Communicatrix writing/reflections and I’m thrilled to have received 2 of them back-to-back in my email. Hope to hear more from you in 2015!

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